Day 7
Length: 10 minutes (timed)
Start: 11:16pm
Experience:
Songs again. Radioactive by Imagine Dragons just completely wrecked my peace. I suppose it could be worse though, it could have been dubstep.
Focusing on the breath brought momentary reprieve. I am extremely stressed and haven't slept well, last night I realized part of my leg and foot are going numb (I'm guessing it's related to the accident), and I've begun searching for a new car because mine appears to be dieing. I have an appointment with an orthopedic surgeon but that does not quiet me.
My mind is racing as usual. It jumps to the usual relationships and the like. Stress makes this much harder. I lash myself internally for a lack of self control several times.
Closing Thoughts: Do not download catchy music and listen to it prior to meditating. Bad news. Stress causes me to have severe issues maintaining concentration. Perhaps read a book on meditation for 15 minutes before beginning? That might focus me.
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