Day 2
Length: 10 minutes (timed)
Start: 5:45pm
Experience:
My thoughts are torrential. It's late in the day so I've felt the full brunt of a working day, some bad sleep mixed in, and it wrecks my focus. I find myself constantly trying to refocus on my breath to try to get away but it doesn't work. I also made the stupid decision to play a game online before I started, which made me more irritated because I lost.
I recognize the drifting into the past, remember that I am supposed to be of the present, then realign myself with the breath again. Music is playing and occasional parts seed my conscious with lyrics.
I worry about a conversation I'll be having later in the week about possibly moving out with some friends. I don't dread the conversation but I think about it and realize it is a 'future state' that I need not concern myself with at the moment.
Closing thoughts: After work is not wise, but if I oversleep or am outside of my home it will be my only option. I'll need to cultivate a state of mindfulness that is not in competition with a long day at work.
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